Are You Living In Your Past Or In Joy?

It may seem to you like I’ve been thinking and talking about abuse for over a month. It actually concerned a few of my friends! I had multiple people ask me how I was doing with the daily blog posting (which I appreciate by the way).

I was asked the following two questions,

“How are you doing with writing about it everyday?”

“Don’t you feel like you’re living in the past?”

I had moments where I felt overwhelmed this month. The commitment I made to blog everyday was more than I could handle in the second half of October as it overlapped with the first three times of speaking publicly on Being Abused While A Christian.

The truth is, writing and talking about abuse is bittersweet for me. Some memories hurt more than others. But all of it brings me joy.

I live in joy because the past violence I’ve survived is just that- in the past. It is not in my present. I believe it will not be in my future.

When I write and speak about abuse I am not bringing it into my present.

My words may or may not be about me. Or about the violence I experienced or the abuser I lived with.

My words are of God’s unfailing presence and love.

I use my words (and my story) to tell of God’s grace and redemption in my life to encourage you in wherever you are in your own journey.

I asked you to pray everyday of October for freedom from abuse #pray4dvfreedom.

I ask now that you continue to pray for me as I continue to seek God in all of my words both written and spoken. I have the same prayer request as Paul did to the Christians in Ephesus, “…be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words many be given to me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel,” in Ephesians 6:18-19.

Thank you for reading my words. I pray for you often, that you may be encouraged and confident each day as you continue in your journey of a #healthylifestyleinsideandout.